Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Saturday, July 16, 2005

The Strength Within

Liking some guy but too afraid to say it out. Another guy likes you but you feel like running away from him all the time. You're afraid that you're making the wrong move and did not get what you're actually worth for. In the end, you're left with no one but your own lonely self. What a karma.

Hence, it is always the strength, confidence and faith that overules all. Where do you get it? From some typical romantic soap opera; where the girl give flowers, jump overbridges, crying her head out and what not to the guy he likes? Or maybe from the experience of your gal friends who had guys drooling all over them? Or maybe just jump to the opportunity and never look back.

The mere reason is this : you're afraid that you won't get to see the guy's real self until it is too late. I've seen too many of this melodramatic situations where pairs of lovebirds initially became so disfunctioned when they raise a family.

Or the next reason may be this : you're far more settled than the guy, financially or by experience itself. You may be head over heels on a simple guy who earned half of what you're making now.. and there will be times when you feel like, "I might make my guy feel so inferior due to this financial earning issue... he might think that i pull rank...", etc. Also, maybe you're a easy going gal with lots of important people around you; you talk good English; public relation and interaction is not a problem to you; you're good at dancing, drawing, singing, while the guy of your dreams may just be simple guy who does not care at his vocabulary level; keen at looking at other people doing their stuff instead of joining in; and he rather run away than talking to superior level and such.

Then question may come as this: "If that guy of your dreams is such a klutz and simpleton, why are you putting him so high on a pedestal?There are lots of other guys who are doing well in their daily undertakings, you know? Why don't you go for the many engineers, doctors, even businessmen out there?"

Well, the simple yet important reply will come out as this, "I love him for what he is, and for what he is not. I love him seeing me as a beautiful woman, though at times I feel the zits all over my face and my figure doesn't allow me to get the stunning dress that I always longing at; I love him to not caring whether he's talking Manglish or rubbish, but how he makes me laugh at all the simple sentence that he's saying to me, and they sound like a beautiful sound to my ear; I love him to just know how to garden and keeping the house and family well cared, coz I might not be able to keep my sanity If he's not around."

"Above all, I love him for his simple way of making life beautiful; he's my protector, my guardian, my soulmate, my life".

And with that faith, I will be able to face my guy and tell him I love him so much. God, with Your help, I will be brave to say out what have been dwelling long in my mind.